"When it's over, I want to say all my life
I was a bride married to amazement.
I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.
When it's over, I don't want to wonder
if I have made of my life something particular, and real.
I don't want to find myself sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.
I don't want to end up simply having visited this world."
I was a bride married to amazement.
I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.
When it's over, I don't want to wonder
if I have made of my life something particular, and real.
I don't want to find myself sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.
I don't want to end up simply having visited this world."
- Mary Oliver
As I finish my twenty-seventh trip around the sun, I find myself here: settled. Not settling- never settling- but landed, in a way, in a place that I've always dreamed of.
It might be fleeting, but I'll try to remember how this kind of wholeness feels. I will think about it next week, next month and next year. And I will hold it close, because by getting here I haven't been given anything but the key to open a brand new door to life.
Tonight I want for nothing but to be with my people. To be in my place. To surround myself with music, faces and glittering light.
Tomorrow is my twenty-seventh birthday.
So here's to today, my own new year's eve, and to twenty-seven plus twenty-seven plus twenty-seven more years of awe and wonderment after this.
